the history of this blog, and more nerves

i keep thinking about what will happen tomorrow. on a lighter note, it will be my last time @ bbdc if i do pass. i will, upon getting the letter from traffic police, proceed down to the counter to buy p-plates, and make sure i get the $200-odd left in my bbdc account back. and if i fail, of course, the first thing to do would be to put more money into the account so i have enough for say, 3 more lessons, and to book test date. if i fail and meet any of the g8001 instructors i will be eternally embarrassed i think.


(the earliest re-test date is 29/12, which means failing tomorrow would make it just right for me to take my test early jan, with a couple of revision lessons in between holiday and school. im sure it'll suffice. bbdc has yet to open up training slots for jan, so getting lessons shouldnt be a problem if i stalk the website enough. other than their intention to change groups to 10 instructors/group next year, and the money aspect of things, i dont see any issue that may potentially turn problematic.)






i signed into nuffnang to check my hits and amazingly, readership has increased over the past two weeks. and guess why! ive been getting hits from google searches for "bbdc worst instructor" as well as a couple of instructors' names. i even got one from "young instructor bbdc". HAHAHA. i cant stop laughing at the thought of having people google such things and come to my blog. indeed, i am running a free-for-all bbdc review service. at the same time i also feel quite freaked out cos if some of the instructors google such things and get my blog, i wonder what they'll think.


they'll probably be damn pressured to be nice to me.


oh man, look at this and this. now it seems i have only blogged about the two of them which is untrue, since according to the statistics (which i intend to publish if i pass tomorrow), i have actually had ronald siew teach me most often. maybe nobody has tried typing ronald siew into google yet. now this becomes another reason to pass tomorrow because how can i risk instructors googling their names and finding my blog??? THATS LIKE THE MOST EMBARRASSING THING EVER, a reason why i dont blog profs' names!


i find it quite surprising nobody has googled sim kh. now there is one reason - sim kh is not computer literate. yes, he happened to mention that while telling me his life story. which would imply that the rest of the instructors, particularly those whose names have been googled, are actually googling themselves. thats quite probable/acceptable since if i were running a service like that i'd probably google myself every night to see what my students say about me.


i now have this terrible image of them instructors googling their names, finding my blog, knowing that its me and the next day going to tell all the other instructors about what ive written.


should be thankful for everyone who has been typing instructors' names into google and in the process raising my readership. thank you. although i hope i wont have any more chances of blogging about them anymore. MUST PASS TOMORROW.


okay, i will blog about my tester tomorrow. may i get one who is nice, lenient and quiet. and please may i pass tomorrow. i keep telling myself less than 11 points (when it comes to things where 20 is the max, i just have to benchmark it against my olevel score.) but truthfully im damn scared ill get some immediate failure crap. because ive been getting immediate failures all this while, get it???


hahahaha.


ok i just found some forum pages discussing driving and some girls (the posts are dated 2004 to be fair) are gushing about "yan dao bbdc instructors" and others are going "bbdc?? i dont see any yan dao instructors there leh!!!" HAHAHA. and i read a blog stating bbdc's passing rate is very low. which is, not unbelievable. i only know ONE person from bbdc who passed on her first attempt. truthfully, i dont know. i just dont want to jinx myself. after reading so much though i have practically zilch confidence, not in myself, but in the testers.


if i do fail though, please dont laugh at me the way my sister does over me not knowing a thing about complex numbers (this is like, the ultimate joke between the both of us, because till date i still know nothing about complex numbers). people pass and people fail. its all part of life.


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