this is the time where driving became a painful affair

there was this time not too far into my driving course where i really, really dreaded driving lessons because of the instructors. somehow i just kept getting super annoying instructors. my face would be really black everytime i saw a familiar name on the slip. going to bbdc felt like a gamble every single time because i just wanted to get instructors not from my group. of course this attitude changed later on.

driving was awful- i was having a lot of trouble concentrating cos i was so tired and ng hl's bad attitude didnt help. honestly, he has no business showing his customers attitude. bah.

i sense my driving skills deteriorate because of the instructors. its psychological but when you really hate the instructor its very hard to learn from them? its really bad cos i keep harping on the wrong things. things like how 1) if i pass on my first attempt instructors in my group - those i hate - are going to get a bonus. like really; thats what the guy at the service counter told me the purpose of fixed group was. thats not really my concern per se, but people like huimin 'graduated' from bbdc without getting the same instructors more than once, which means her instructors only taught her once, but they got their bonus all the same cos huimin passed on her first attempt. i dont really care about them and their bonus considering im not paying it, cos in the first place 2) i dont even think i can pass on my first attempt if this continues cos i freaking hate driving lessons with these instructors.

i really want to change my group but they said i can only change to another auto group, but my fave instructor's teaching manual (WHY WHY WHY?!) and i have no idea which auto group i should choose. also, if i change group i have to give up all my current training slots (which ive booked 2-3x a week for the whole month of september, which would theoretically allow me to finish driving lessons by october) so i am very very unwilling to do that.

its really weird how im typing like this cos not too long ago i was looking forward to each of my driving lessons. this is sad and unfortunate. mr lu shouldnt be teaching manual!!!!

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